Schizophrenia: The Voices (aliens)

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Adam Fitzgerald : I'm not sure if you've touched upon it before fully but what do you believe your voices are a manifestation of? For instance do you believe Benjamin and Halio5 are part of your own internal consciousness and the 'illness' is how these normal positive (halio5) and negative (Benjamin) thoughts about yourself project and weave into your reality. Like when we're asleep and dreaming and can hear and sense things that seem so vivid and real but somehow that processing is not being switched off during awake hours. Or do you attach a more spiritual and real quality to them and see them as distinct entities from you? Or do you fluctuate between your opinion of what they are in relation to how you're feeling or medication doses and types and how intense things might be? With the question of reality everything is a theory I guess, I'm interested in how you perceive your experiences. Also I'd like to know if you've ever tried to adopt a different attitude towards Benjamin, insulted him back and tried to stand up to his bullying? I know my friend managed to rid himself of many voices by devising mental ways of attacking them. I"m not schizophrenic and I can't imagine how difficult it must be to do that, but Benjamin seems to be the thing that stands in your way of enjoying life, of having a positive opinion of yourself. And the things he says are absolutely false of course. I"m prone to writing essays so I'll stop here. I understand if you feel you've already talked enough about these things or there are things you want to keep private, I'm genuinely interested to learn more is all. I think any kind of feedback loop of understanding each other can have some positive outcome no matter how small.

K. : Damn,life is hard for everybody but she has truly had it bad.Repeatedly sexually abused when she was a kid,mother killed herself and that added with severe mental illness like schizophrenia.She is doing a lot better than most in her situation,it takes alot of guts to put yourself out there like that and show yourself to the world. Do you know about adsense maya?None of your videos have ads and even though I know you don't do this for the money if you are getting on average 10,000 views a video that equates to about $200 i think.It would just be nice to know you are getting that little something extra out of this.Anyways,god bless.(Sorry us atheists shouldn't say that,let's say Science bless).

nicola pereira : she reminds me of a young Whitney Houston! so beautiful.

Keyandria Miller : are you eating properly? I hope so!! be safe

Kristen Young : Tell Benjamin to drop his location.

Orange Blossom : She's so likable and beautiful.

Rose Love : It's crazy how much you can care about someone you've never met. Maya I care so much about you . When you started crying my heart broke into two pieces and then crumbled some more. Ily! Keep your head up.

EarthAngelBre : I feel like people with schizophrenia are able to tune into different realms, dimensions, and universes all at once. Keep going, you such a beautiful and unique being. Oh yeah and i love your shoes.

Maya's Ark : I'm sorry that Benjamin is so cruel, we are all here for you and you are so strong!

Seraya Martinez : Hi Maya-You can write a small book of short stories and self-publish on Amazon. You could make about 60-70% profit. You would need someone to help you, so maybe your dad can help you. Maybe some day. You have a great community of supporters out here who would be interested in buying and reading whenever you are ready and feel comfortable. Thanks for sharing.

Perfect Imperfections : I'm noticing like a lot of cuts and scars of your forearm . I hope you're doing well hun ❤️ you're so beautiful. Hate to see you harm yourself like that

DrewFace507943 : This girl is amazing...I mean really amazing. I'll continue to watch every video she is willing to make. I hope life gets easier for her.

Dana J : What a sweet soul!

Charisse Bordeaux : I work with spmi individuals with schizophrenia and schizoaffective. I always recommend them watching your videos and others on YouTube to help them identify with others. I had a client say, "It's not so bad having voices because I never have to walk alone." Love your videos. Keep it up, girl. ❤

Rosie : I would love to see a fashion video from you.

Ce'Asia Grey : I'm so sorry you have to go through this. You don't deserve what happened to you one bit. Benjamin can stick it 🖕🏾 You're strong af for sharing your experiences. You show your artistic ability not only through your writing and drawing but through your Makeup and Fashion. Your style definitely shows a person more on the creative side ❤️ wishing you the best love. Stay strong

Ralou Larou : I think that we all have the voices the only difference is that the people who don't suffer from schizophrenia realise that is not people or alien who talk to them but their subconsciousness

Slave 4u : I feel like she's a lost angel that protects other teens and young adults by like sacrificing her own life for the 21st century

THE HATER : is it me or she look like the reincarnated Whitney Houston

A Fallen Angel. : I just rewatched sum of ur vids...u saved my life. Stuffs been going on and I attempted suicide at 3:00am today. Then my phone turned on and it was a notification of a reply u sent, and I have ADHD so I kinda got distracted and ive been wanted to say thanjs for that message!!!! Luv u

jabbasnuffin : you don't have to be super skilled to be an artist, just make art and you are one ✨

Maleah Maleah : Maya I want you to be happy so bad.

Shack D : you should stop listening to the voices that are telling you bad things that your spirit knows is going to hurt itself or hurt or someone else because those are not aliens in the Bible they're called demons. I plead the blood of Jesus over this woman that she would be able to fight all her demons and only listen to the good voice that speaks to her the voice that speaks to her as soft as a whisper. the whisper that only tells her to do good in Jesus name I pray for her amen amen and amen. and just to let you know Christianity is not a religion it's the spirituality try reading the Bible and mixing it with meditation and then you'll see that God and Jesus is real because just like I told you I had schizophrenia I want to God of my schizophrenia is gone God bless you

getbackup again : My grandma was in the hospital with cancer when I was a teen and I prayed and prayed and begged God for her to get better and she died. I grew up Catholic also and when my grandmother died I disconnected from God also. God doesn't always give us what we want. It wasn't fair and it took me a long time to even cry because I was left numb for a long time. Just know that God is there and loves you very much. I hope you'll​ someday see that you're very beautiful, talented, intelligent and creative.

Gloria Reyes : Happy Pride Month! I love watching your videos. I am also mentally ill and queer.

JHaaby TV : I know she calls them in the ants but I'm wondering if their spirits and she's just extremely receptive and sensitive to spirits and they can get in her head but she probably knows better than I do

Misty Villarreal : You've met religion not Jesus

waveboi93 : fresh new camera, quality looking good yo

Angry Peaches : I don't hear voices but sometimes I can hear my thoughts like its being said to me I understand that. I'm sorry that Benjamin hurts you, you don't diserve the pain you have endured. Please stay strong and I Love u❤️

Liam O Donovan : you look really pretty Maya your shoes look really cute i just found your channel but I love you sweetheart

mixolydian mode : Such a sad story. Allt he best for you. Your illness is also a power. Your are out of the ordinary. The ancient greeks for example sanctified hermaphrodites because they are in a world in-between and can see things we can't, I do believe though it is a medical condition and those voices are your own thoughts confused by your brain as other voices.

Unconventional Girl : I hate voices that's only gain is to make your life a living hell. I feel your emotions through this vid hun, we're all here for you! 🌺💖

Aleysia ' : I have a question it might sound stupid but does music help? Like does listening to music with headphones help block them out, or do they just get louder?

AvengerNaruto : Damn you look mad different from feb to June it's crazy

Becky S : those voices are demons and you should def not talk to them, they are dangerous. jesus can free you from them, just call on him and he'll save you.

Sonia Hema : This is not schizophrenia this is you under attack..seek spiritual help please.

Glazeko : Hey, I can kinda relate to what you're going through but you seem to have it worse and I'm sorry. Please don't think that anything that happened to you is your fault or that you deserve it. Life was meant to be enjoyed and you're a beautiful person who wants to uplift people. Thanks for making these videos, but one last thing... It's really sad that you lost your mother at such a young age. It's crazy but I'm a writer too and I'd always be drawing all these characters and creatures. One day, I realized just how much they meant to me and it just hit me like a truck that they weren't real. Now it's like they are dead and I don't want to keep drawing and writing because it's just too much. Not just that but I've lost a lot of things, even my peace of mind? I'm super insecure and don't really feel I deserve anything. I've given up on God a few times, but the Bible truly does explain why everything is the way it is and I don't want to leave it. I've been sent to the hospital several times and talked to a few psychiatrists but I just know they'll never be able to fix the damage. Still, I have that hope for this: Revelation 21:4 *And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.* I don't want you to keep living with those voices, probably wondering what if it's this, or that. Being confused downhearted and lost. I'm still struggling with my faith, but I feel like God isn't giving up on us. And I'm just a stranger to whoever may come across this, but it really bothers me when I hear an atheist say there is no God because we are just people and we don't know the whole picture. We don't know everything from the past and the future is unpredictable. Anyway, I think that's all I had to say for now. Thanks for reading.

JHaaby TV : She has so much courage and she's so strong. I bet most people with her type of schizophrenia would not be able to make videos. I admire her so much. I'm a caregiver and I understand all types of developmental disabilities and she's so amazing. She's honestly A hero in my mind.

carla silva : I feel like she's getting skinnier

maya k : i would really like to see vid about your clothes, i love your style ❤ like if u agree

Trina S : halio is right. you don't deserve any of that. Benjamin is stupid and insensitive. you are seriously amazing for pushing past everything and making this video. it takes a lot of courage and you should be so proud. in so so proud of you. you have amazing strength

P Fair : I can definitely relate to where you said how the voice can change it's voice and make u think it's someone else...I heard the voice of a friend that passed away often until it turned evil and said it was never him and he was just fooling me the whole time...I used to be Christian but when the voice would go from saying it was Jesus then the devil and both tormented me and made me do awful things that's when I stopped believing so I also don't like when people try to push Jesus on me neither..

His Creation : You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing your life. You are brave and beautiful.

Observer Zero : You're lucky to have so many things left, girl. So many destroy their works and writings...

L A : I really appreciate how you take the time to educate us on how you experience voices. Is there a way for you to trick Benjamin into leaving? Like part ways and maybe give room for a positive voice to come in his place..maybe someone more encouraging? I obviously don't know if this is possible..just wondering

Char Dion : Maya could you do a Q&A with you're dad? I would like to see him talk about how he copes with you're mental disorders . I hope this isn't offensive , I'm just curious

Watermelon Wizard : She's looking a little scary thin, no? I hope everything is okay.

Aria Brooks : You are such a beautiful and strong woman!

Railey Richardson : This is a little bit creepy since she said one of the voices is named Richardson 710 and that's my last name and my birthday...

Spooby : You can art!! I can see You art pretty good. Show us some of your best sketches and art pieces. As long as you have fun doing it, then your art is good. Art should be therapeutic.